Friday, May 1, 2009

I want to write,
something that catches lightning,
that electrifies the page
sends sparks leaping
off your tongue, a
crackling dance,
alight in your ears.

I want you to hear me,
roll your eyes,
and smile.

And I'm afraid
my pen is wooden,
that what makes my
fingers tingle will only
make you roll your eyes
and sigh.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

When he stood to speak,
they misunderstood

and he yawned, said that
understanding is not a requisite

for virtue, that intent matters little.

Then wondered aloud what feeling
made Descartes assert

I think therefore I am.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Let's hear it for the reset button!

More to come.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

New Skin

Here's a collaborative piece that Tommy Oviatt, of Sofo, and I just wrote. Literally five minutes ago.




Sighing, and laughing shakily, the moment arrived
and mourning arose, like light in her eyes
frantic, at the point of fervent persperation,
he leapt up and winced,
realizing finally, that shorebound, he'd missed
the feeling of movement, the lift,
the dazzling ethereal emptiness sometimes
caught in a red summer sunset,
alone, drifting to the distant seagull's song
and boring through the sky, back to the thing
for which he'd looked all along,
what he'd tragically forgotten to dredge up
in daily memory, he had managed to mangle; to distort
the odd sting he would otherwise feel if he'd only
place his arms around something real, shake it hard
to see what might fall, breathe in deep to
stand up and reach for what could be all
given with age, like a perpetual guest, uninvited and
persistent, was more tangible now, and on its
wind floated the fact that this happens once,
with no return ticket, no hint of remorse
and a wasted life follows broken course, past empty
smiles and shattered isles, from closed eyes to fearful
sighs blowing past those great worlds in which we cast
our dreams, the universe in which you live that I can't flee,
never rests or relinquishes its staggering demands
squeezing dry an undreamt man, wrenching
weariness from the fortunate, forecasting failure
for the faint, leaving only a listless murmur,
a blue-bruise stain, a limp deep enough to slow recollection
so emotion drifts down, sifts out to leave the golden
lesson learned - a life ignored may as well be burned,
as he foresees himself, empty in orange embers
dust in a line of light, aimless in its wandering,
no embrace, no twinge of solace, as if meant
for another, more radiant flesh.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Run On (RD)

I think my pen hears the music tonight,
as we sit in noisy room, the buzzing
cacophony of voices, orchestra piped
soulless over us, and the coughing start
of smooth jazz, you know that express train
predictable surprise of a silky guitar
hitting that impossibly high note, and the vapid
wink of a guitarist who wants us to know we're
in on it too - then the drummer kicks
up - holy shit, three high hats in a row? crazy,
and he looks powerfully constipated
with piano's hair low over eyes, shielding
her from a cruel world, and my eyes can't
see the page, nor the poem I'm sure
is swell, and my lids burn as they
lower and raise, did you know that your
brain invents what it doesn't see when you
blink? an entire world made up,
and you don't even know you're doing it,
ah someone's told the barista and
the background music's off while the pretty
redhead stands to leave - she'd been discussing
the earnest problem of nuke-you-lahr power
and the evil republicans, but those pants look
fucking sexy over those legs, so I'll forgive
her, and she stops to watch the guitarist one
last time as he sways to his music, forward
as the unending scale drops, leaning back
as it rises, the sour smell of espresso -
why the hell does it smell like that? and
the band has started a new song, I'm sure
it'll get old, but I like it right now, and
when I hold my head just right, the ink
glistens as it flows from my pen, and I'm
sure it's sorry for exploding in my backpack
while I biked here, down the path, the sound
of water and the hum of tires, the

tictic
tictictictictictictictictictictictictictictictic
while I rest, the grate of chain on derailer -
remember to fix that, you've meant to for
months, it's one of the last tangible reminders
of her, she gave me that bike, I fucking
love that bike, and I could call her, but
leaving home was hard enough, and I'm sure
she's found someone else, or will soon, and
she'll probably kiss him too, but
that bike is perfect, except for the chain,
but that's not her fault, it's your fault for not
fixing it yet, and the band has stopped playing,
I'm not sure if I got tired of the song,
but it was long, and they dimmed the lights
while it was playing, now the ink doesn't
shine like it did before, but I know my
pen didn't mean to leak, because now
it's writing beautifully, it's trying so hard,
and it's okay anyway that I have ink all over
my fingers, because now I have something
in common with both pen and paper,
and the black on my hands matches the
dark streaks running through the fake copper
table top and the spot where the veneer has
faded away to show the rubber rim edging
the round, and it's good to feel connected to
something again, the table is a perfect size,
my tea sitting close, some books set
in front, I'm not sure if I brought them
to read, to look cool, or to protect against
a lazy mind and tired fingers, the coffee's run
low, and the grinder drowns out everything
in a satisfying whir, a useful squeal, and
now it's stopping, and I think the band is
still playing the same stand up bass line
that saunters through every smooth jazz quartet
and I think some dude with pigtails is
discussing the earnest problem of antibiotic -
resistant mutations, while some short-hair
blonde chick sips a whipped-cream coffee and
looks bored, and why the hell do I smell chili? it
smells delicious, and I want some chili, and
I can't seem to write chili without writing
the hili first, then coming back to write the
c, and I can't hear the band anymore, my
breath is playing too loud, and I can feel
my heart thumping slowly, my handwriting
is still small, but it's getting clearer, and
I think my pen wants to rest, it's getting tired,
and I want to sit for a moment
and listen to myself breathe.